1. I am not the most pleasant person to be around. I find myself to be hugely sarcastic and highly cynical these days. I'm impatient with people, when most of the time; I am pretty tolerant.
2. A lot of the time I take my frustrations out on my husband. So very bad, I know. I need to remember that it is just as much of his issue as it is mine.
3. Sometimes, I say that it is my issue and not ours, because we know that the problem lies with me.
4. I reacted TERRIBLY when my brother and sister-in-law announced that they were pregnant, back in March. I will share that story another time. . . although, I don't really want to because your perception of me might change! Eeek!
5. I have shut Steven's family out from what has been going on. I'm not saying that I will forever...I just feel like because they are so happy about example #3 (happens to be the first grandchild), and if they were to know about all the details--then (I kind of think it's already there) there'd be a huge elephant in the room, named "Pity". However, I feel resentful due to the things that are said, because they think that everything is alright. I have put myself in a bind with this one, since they all live in town and we see them often.
5. I have shut Steven's family out from what has been going on. I'm not saying that I will forever...I just feel like because they are so happy about example #3 (happens to be the first grandchild), and if they were to know about all the details--then (I kind of think it's already there) there'd be a huge elephant in the room, named "Pity". However, I feel resentful due to the things that are said, because they think that everything is alright. I have put myself in a bind with this one, since they all live in town and we see them often.
6. I'm obsessive about my weight. I don't have an eating disorder - I eat. However, I find myself constantly worrying about how much I'm eating. I'm more conscientious about my intake - which is good, but at the same time I could relax a bit. I know it's because I feel like it's the only thing I can control about my body right now.
7. As the process continues, I kind of feel like the news I get is worse and worse. I'm optimistic, but I feel like I was more positive the days following my surgery than I am today.
7. As the process continues, I kind of feel like the news I get is worse and worse. I'm optimistic, but I feel like I was more positive the days following my surgery than I am today.
8. I've seen a counselor. There is nothing wrong with getting counseling, in fact it's probably the healthiest thing to do, but I have had moments where I am so in my head; that I have needed that unbiased person to help me sort out those thoughts.
I promise that there are good things, too! I just don't want to pretend like I have this trial and that I'm taking it better than the next person would.
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