1. Marriage is hard to wrap your head around - Maybe I'm the only one who thinks this way. I've stopped and just stared at Steven and thought, "Oh my gosh, you committed your life around mine and I've committed mine around yours!" We plan EVERYTHING around each other and we have been doing so for so many years. It's a trip, but it's good . . . definitely good! Probably better than it's ever been. Seven years is for the birds. If you asked me at five . . . it probably would have been different! Ha!
2. Marriage shows your vulnerability - Remember the days when you and your spouse were dating? You were always pretty, 100% optimistic, and had very few vices? It has come to mind recently, that this person who I NEVER in a million years would have wanted to view me negatively; has seen me at my worst. Physically ugly (bed head, sans makeup, winter-pale), emotionally ugly (we won't get into details), my most embarrassing moments (won't get into those either!), times of weakness, etc. Yep. Seen it all. That is vulnerability my friends.
3. I love LOVE being a girl - There is no doubt in my mind that I was born to be a girl. More specifically, gender and gender role. Call me simple-minded/submissive-wife(haha, yeah right)/embarrassment-to-women-fighting-for-feminist-movements . . . I just happen to think that I am secure in my role. Cooking, cleaning (okay maybe not so much), decorating, crafting, making home and family enjoyable . . . that's me. And I love it! I think it was mostly my upbringing. In fact, sometimes I think my parents depended on me for certain things over my brothers. Could be because I was the oldest, but they always treated me like I was completely capable of anything. Maybe I'm not capable of getting preggers without some medical intervention, but I'm not thinking along those lines anymore. . . Also, my Dad was an excellent example as to how to treat my mom as his equal. They were and are a great example to me. So yes, I enjoy being a girl and everything that comes with it.
5. Cancer is horrible - I have heard so many stories about young people with cancer. Breaks my heart. It doesn't seem fair and doesn't seem like something that one should be fighting or having to worry about. Especially, at a young age. They are most definitely in my thoughts and prayers.
And to leave on a positive note . . .